Randomness.
Thoughts of the day are as follows:
-I *can* use my current parking sticker on the shitty minivan that I am stuck in. I don't even have to visit the police station I can just write in the information myself. W00t! This means as soon as possible, like, um, Saturday, I am getting out of my parents house.
-I think I'm driving my parents just as nuts as they are driving me. And talking to my father this morning, he says we need to have a "discussion" but my lifestyle (i.e. my social calander and my sleep times.) Problems with this are, I've been (generally) going to bed at midnight/1-ish and waking up at 8or for several weeks now, I dunno what they are bitching about. Problem the second, my social life is actually tighter and more scheudled out now than it ever has been. What do my parents think just because I don't call them from my own apartment and say "Hey just as an FYI, I'm going for drinks and not sleeping at my own house tonight", that it doesn't happen?? WTF. Also, if they want me to do boring, mindnumbing tasks that they only mention offhand once every 3 weeks, then they need to more firmly remind me to do it, otherwise, it ain't getting done. Additionally, since when did my social schuedle or sex life become there business?? And, since when do I need permission to walk of a room to take an important phone call?? Grrrrrr. I'll be out soon and a much happier boy.
-Next, Sally Jane looks happy and that makes me happy. Yeee Haww!!!
-Next, I'm going to spend a fair amount of my day cleaning, and I'm okay with that.
-Next, I nearly have a very important letter finished. Need to run it by Jonathon and probably Batina/Sally Jane, but its looking good.
-Next, mentally taking alllllllllll of yesterday off was very good for me, I was able to be happy, pleasent, conversational and give good massages at the munch yesterday rather than being flat and negative.
-Next, I need to write an e-mail to Batina/Sally Jane. Thats right after the letter is done.
-Next, this laptop is very hot, I am not even going to set this thing on my bare legs and type. can we spell 2nd degree burns?
-I have awesome green/yellow/purple bruises on me....and thats hot. Hey, Mr. Ninja, next time I'm in Chitown, want to do a straight up punching scene???
-Next, I need to call my doc re: massive appitite changes.
-Next, I need to buy a book called "The Non-Runner's Marathon Trainer"
-Next, Yesterday I decieded to train to run a marathon with Batina and some others. I don't care how long it takes to finish, but fuck, if I can finish a marathon I can fucking to anything.
-Next, Henceforth, Batina's new boyfriend (okay they have been seeing each other for awhile, but whatever) will henceforth be known as.....Jack....because thats nothing like his name. Sally Jane's new possible boy toy will get a name soon enough, if he keeps being the awesome person we all think he is.
-Next, I need to find some casual way of letting Sally Jane's new boy toy know that if he hurts her even a little, even on accident, even if its only for a fraction of a moment, then I'll break every bone in his hand. I think thats fair? Right? :-D
Okay, I could keep "Nexting" (which is an old debater thing for when we forgot whether we were on point 13 or 14 and just stopped numbering) all morning, but I want to be productive. So....
Toodles!
Jake Bullet
Friday, April 28, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Well, I just got done meeting with a psych guy regarding ADD. And it was a fairly productive meeting, so yeah there's that. I'll be seeing him again next week to start working.
I'm still dealing with this ridiculous insurance thing. What pisses me off the most is if they had said "Hey we broke your part, but weren't going to fix it, so go fuck yourself", well then I could have just gone and taken care of it right away and it would only cost 100 bucks. Not the obscene amounts this is going to cost. But I've got a few options and so I'm going to keep working those angles.
I feel kind of weird lately. Just kind of mentally out of it. But, that'll come and go, so I'm not all that concerned, its just a little annoying. And for no reason I can discern, my appetite is fallen alot. Like I'm sort of hungry, but I don't want anything to eat. Its weird.
But oh well, I have a letter to write to insurance people today, and something to write up for Batina and Sally Jane and also a thing for the new pysch guy. So I guess I'm going to go write. But first, I'm going to go wander around the kitchen and not find anything to eat again.
Jake Bullet
I'm still dealing with this ridiculous insurance thing. What pisses me off the most is if they had said "Hey we broke your part, but weren't going to fix it, so go fuck yourself", well then I could have just gone and taken care of it right away and it would only cost 100 bucks. Not the obscene amounts this is going to cost. But I've got a few options and so I'm going to keep working those angles.
I feel kind of weird lately. Just kind of mentally out of it. But, that'll come and go, so I'm not all that concerned, its just a little annoying. And for no reason I can discern, my appetite is fallen alot. Like I'm sort of hungry, but I don't want anything to eat. Its weird.
But oh well, I have a letter to write to insurance people today, and something to write up for Batina and Sally Jane and also a thing for the new pysch guy. So I guess I'm going to go write. But first, I'm going to go wander around the kitchen and not find anything to eat again.
Jake Bullet
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Mentally whacking off
Okay, fine, we can all admit, I don't want to be at my parents house right now. I miss my things, my set up, etc. But I can't do anything about it. So its time to stop mentally masturbating and just get some stuff done.
I've moved all my ADD books into my temporary room, I've started a folder on the computer where I can keep my stuff and I've got a very important appointment tomorrow. I can still get alot of stuff done at my parents house. I may not like being here, but whining about it gets me no where. And is unproductive. And is probably annoying to the people around me.
So, on todays agenda we have the following:
-Take Amen's test then read his book
-Make notes of small items you want to get before school (special alarm clock, timer, new organizational scheme, etc)
-Go back to dealership to deal with car (short version, Valvoline broke my car to the tune of $1300-$1800....they want to give me $105 and a can of STP....we are in negotiations and I have no car now.)
-Make notes for possible book (maybe do a version of it as an indy study at school???) on ADD
I may not be at my house, but I can be productive just the same. Oh and I need to remember to eat. I completely forgot to eat anything at all yesterday....not good for stomach.
Oh, and anyone with ADD who reads this, feel free to offer advice or drop me a note, I can always use more information.
Okay time for work....and pasta.
Jake Bullet
I've moved all my ADD books into my temporary room, I've started a folder on the computer where I can keep my stuff and I've got a very important appointment tomorrow. I can still get alot of stuff done at my parents house. I may not like being here, but whining about it gets me no where. And is unproductive. And is probably annoying to the people around me.
So, on todays agenda we have the following:
-Take Amen's test then read his book
-Make notes of small items you want to get before school (special alarm clock, timer, new organizational scheme, etc)
-Go back to dealership to deal with car (short version, Valvoline broke my car to the tune of $1300-$1800....they want to give me $105 and a can of STP....we are in negotiations and I have no car now.)
-Make notes for possible book (maybe do a version of it as an indy study at school???) on ADD
I may not be at my house, but I can be productive just the same. Oh and I need to remember to eat. I completely forgot to eat anything at all yesterday....not good for stomach.
Oh, and anyone with ADD who reads this, feel free to offer advice or drop me a note, I can always use more information.
Okay time for work....and pasta.
Jake Bullet
Monday, April 24, 2006
ADHD
Well, it appears that I haven't really posted anything in over a month. Which is unussual for me.
But its been pointed out several times recently that I haven't been blogging at all of late. And, to be honest, I miss the opportunity to write, to vent, to mentally explore ideas, to comment on my own life and my friends lives. Lately, I've missed it more than before and so here we are once again.
Why did I stop blogging for 6 weeks? Well, several reasons. Sometimes I just don't feel like writing anything, sometimes I forget, sometimes I don't have time. And all of those reasons have occured at one point or another recently, but its really not the main reason. I got out of the habit because I didn't want to write about something specific and habits/rituals are good things for me. They help me keep things in track.
What didn't I want to write about? Well, I dropped out of school in early Feburary.
I dropped out of school. I dropped out because I had reached a point at which it was less productive for me to be in school than to drop out. My grades had been steadily falling, my attendence was horrid, and I couldn't keep track of the day to day details in my life. And its because I had unmanaged, unmedicated ADHD.
I've had ADHD since I was 8, but starting Sophmore year I stoped taking meds and I didn't have any coping strategies.
So I've been spending the time since then seeing doctors, reading books, learning about ADD, and trying to get ready for when I go back. I now have a PDA, a purse (god do I love having a purse!), alot of other small things to help me cope. And I've made alot of good measurable forward steps and I still have more to do.
But yeah, Batina and Sally Jane and I are still having huge amounts of fun, and they are the two best allies I could ever ask for. I'm planning on going to Shibaricon in a few weeks. I've done alot of really good stuff lately. I've hit some road bumps, but I'm working with those. Working on becoming mentally healthier and learning how to drive the race car that is my mind.
So yes, I will try to bring blogging back into my life. And try to keep it interesting for all who still read. But yeah, I'm back and I'm getting better than I have ever been.
Jake Bullet
But its been pointed out several times recently that I haven't been blogging at all of late. And, to be honest, I miss the opportunity to write, to vent, to mentally explore ideas, to comment on my own life and my friends lives. Lately, I've missed it more than before and so here we are once again.
Why did I stop blogging for 6 weeks? Well, several reasons. Sometimes I just don't feel like writing anything, sometimes I forget, sometimes I don't have time. And all of those reasons have occured at one point or another recently, but its really not the main reason. I got out of the habit because I didn't want to write about something specific and habits/rituals are good things for me. They help me keep things in track.
What didn't I want to write about? Well, I dropped out of school in early Feburary.
I dropped out of school. I dropped out because I had reached a point at which it was less productive for me to be in school than to drop out. My grades had been steadily falling, my attendence was horrid, and I couldn't keep track of the day to day details in my life. And its because I had unmanaged, unmedicated ADHD.
I've had ADHD since I was 8, but starting Sophmore year I stoped taking meds and I didn't have any coping strategies.
So I've been spending the time since then seeing doctors, reading books, learning about ADD, and trying to get ready for when I go back. I now have a PDA, a purse (god do I love having a purse!), alot of other small things to help me cope. And I've made alot of good measurable forward steps and I still have more to do.
But yeah, Batina and Sally Jane and I are still having huge amounts of fun, and they are the two best allies I could ever ask for. I'm planning on going to Shibaricon in a few weeks. I've done alot of really good stuff lately. I've hit some road bumps, but I'm working with those. Working on becoming mentally healthier and learning how to drive the race car that is my mind.
So yes, I will try to bring blogging back into my life. And try to keep it interesting for all who still read. But yeah, I'm back and I'm getting better than I have ever been.
Jake Bullet
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Still have the plague, and its getting worse not better. Therefore, I am going to the urgent care clinic in about 20 minutes.
And (this hella sucks) I can't go to the munch tonight. I almost never miss them and I am already pissed that I can't go, but I know after an hour or two I'd feel like microwaved poop and I might infect all my friends. But I still reserve my right to pout about the fact that I can't go hang with my friends.
On a lighter note here are the last 5 songs I've listened to on my computer
-Theme to Brokeback Mountain
-You spin me right round (The 80's are coming back!)
-Swing Life Away by Rise Against
-Soul Meets Body by Death Cab for Cutie
-Let's Push Things Forward by The Streets
I have an odd collection of music
Jake
And (this hella sucks) I can't go to the munch tonight. I almost never miss them and I am already pissed that I can't go, but I know after an hour or two I'd feel like microwaved poop and I might infect all my friends. But I still reserve my right to pout about the fact that I can't go hang with my friends.
On a lighter note here are the last 5 songs I've listened to on my computer
-Theme to Brokeback Mountain
-You spin me right round (The 80's are coming back!)
-Swing Life Away by Rise Against
-Soul Meets Body by Death Cab for Cutie
-Let's Push Things Forward by The Streets
I have an odd collection of music
Jake
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