So, even though when I play I almost always bottom, I do identify as a switch. And one day I hope to have the skills and the community presence to be having cute boys and girls coming to me to ask for play. And there is one skill set in particular that I want to learn.
I want to learn rope. I love rope. I have a serious thing for rope, for rope bondage, for Shibari, for anything you can do with rope. Monk's hemp rope is absolutely beautiful and just the smell of it gets me in a spacy mindset. I want to learn to be a rocking rope top. I want to be skilled enough to put people up in the air with rope. And I have a plan for how to do it. I think I'm going to spend a good portion of Sinsations going to the rope classes, meeting the rockin rope tops and learning everything that I possibly can. Then it'll be time to borrow the Fairy's body for a few days and spend the time learning to tie her up. Practicing the one and two column ties, chest harnesses, hip harnesses and all that good jazz.

What I would really love to do one of these days is be able to attend one of Max's bondage classes, several of them in fact. I occasionally dream about the first time that I go up in the air with rope, and about the day that I first throw someone else up in the air. Maybe one of these days that will happen.

And for now I think I'm going to go listen to a little Death Cab for Cutie and read Midori's bondage book.

Anyone want to let a novice wannabe rope Top practice on them?

Jake Bullet

Sinsations is coming up

So, I'm jazzed. More than jazzed actually, I'm hella jazzed. I know, its crazy. Why? Sinsations in Leather is coming up very very shortly. Very shortly indeed considering that I'll be in Chitown starting at 9 am on Thursday. Most of Thursday and half of Friday will be spent setting up the event and getting everything ready to go and all that jazz. Then I'll be hanging out in classes, meeting people, seeing friends and hopefully doing a few super duper scenes. But the question is, why (outside of play opportunities) do I spend as much time and money as I do on these conventions?

Well, there are really 2 main reasons. First and foremost, I want to learn as much as I can about kink. Technique, philosophy, relationship advice, theory, all of it. I want to know as much as I can about BDSM and sex positive culture. And these conventions are where its all at.

Secondly, and perhaps more importantly for those keeping score at home: kinky friends. I'll admit, I'm looking for a primary partner. And I think (and other very smart people have said) that one of the best ways to meet that "magical someone" (what a blech term) is to have kinky friends. And I have alot of kinky friends. Here in my local community and in Chicago, I have alot of perverts that I'm proud to call my friends. And who knows, maybe one day, one of these friendships will end up with me meeting that special someone. But for now, I love having perverted friends.

And there's the play opportunities. Which are always fun.

Alright well, time to get sleep. I'll have some interesting stuff tomorrow.

Jake Bullet

Parental Units

So, my parents (the Mom and the Dad), plus chip and dip (the sisters) as well as my grandpa just left my house. Its the first time any of them besides the Dad have seen it. And they seemed to like it. We spent most of the night engaging in idle chatter, having dinner at the little Italian place down the street and then finished up with coffee at a shop nearby. My grandfather of course, managed to spend much of the night complaining about things in a way which on the surface seems much nicer and less so that it is. But that's fine, he wanted to come, everyone else had a wonderful time and so too bad.

One of the interesting moments was a discussion of the 15 or so people on both sides of the isle who might make a run at the big chair in 2008. But more interesting was when my mother said "Jake, you're on the internet a lot. What's this blogging thing I keep hearing about?" Well, I explained it as best I could pushing the more social commentary/personal diary angle than anything else (like, oh, I don't know, BDSM perverts writing about there sex lives). And after a few minutes my Mom and Dad look at each other and nearly simultaneously ask "why in the world would anyone do that/read that? And who writes that stuff?". At which point I said "Well, I know that Dawson and I both keep them." And tried to push the social commentary, thoughts on local events, etc. angle some more. They never asked me why or what I write and I'm quite sure that they have no idea that this blog exists, but still it was an interesting little diversion.

Anywho, I'm going to go read a little and then head to bed.

Jake Bullet

The Mom and The Dad

Well, the parents, along with the Grandparent and chip and dip (the sisters) are all coming over in a few hours to see the house and see me. Then its out to dinner and what not. Afterwards I may be heading to gay bars with the Fairy, maybe not. I'm not sure. Anyway, it should be an interesting evening regardless. Worse come to worse, I'll end up curled up reading one of my new books after the Parental Units leave.

Jake Bullet

Randomness number 253

Again, another link. This time, Geriatric Riot Grrl. Hurray for new links. Oh, and one of the things I like best about her blog....she says "fuck off" at the end of every post. I like that.

I talked to Jonathan the other day which was nice, I'm going to make it a point to see him soon because there is some stuff I want to chat with him about and we don't see each other often enough. Plus he left something here last time he visited and I need to give that back to him.

In other news, I will be down in Chicago from early Thursday morning to late late Sunday night. I imagine that I'll have some cool stories for all of you, but I will be completely unavailable then. No cell phone, no e-mail, no blog posts. And I fully intend on enjoying myself. Where am I going to be? Sinsations in Leather, of course. I'll be helping set up and take down the event and during the actual convention itself, I'll be meeting people, hanging out with friends and other such jazz.

I've been feeling a little out of sorts lately, but now isn't the time for that. And here isn't the place. Anyways...

Jake Bullet

Borrowed from the TwistedMonk

Twisted Monk wrote a few days ago:

"One of the elements of my chosen lifestyle is to unapologetically open about it. This is who I am, deal with it or move aside. Not everyone likes this, specifically members of my biological family. I’ve always been a bit “different” but they all seemed to manage better when they did not have to read about it here. Let me tell you, knowing that your parents are reading about you sex life tends to put a damper on just what you choose to write.

This is not a plea for pity, rather an apology to all of you. See, I have been pulling my punches as of late. Opting to write about the mundane rather than what I would like to out of worry that my words would be taken out of context. No more. When pressed to choose between what I hold as truth and the desires of those who would rather I slink back into a darkened, shame filled closet. I choose my morals.

And with that, dear readers, let us return to talking about topics like sex, blood, food and the joys of living the life less ordinary.

Additionally, let this serve as food for thought. No one is truly invisible on-line. No journal is truly anonymous. One day you will be held accountable for your words. The question is how will you respond? With burning shame or defiant pride?"

I like to imagine that the day I am held accountable for what I write here, for what I do in my free time, for my kinks and perversions, and for so many other things that I will respond with defiant pride.

How about you?

Jake Bullet

Lusting

More awesome links!! Janesguide, b.com and janes blog.....woo hoo! Yeah for links.

Randomness: Mondays and Wednesdays are going to blow ass for me. 4 classes each day with no more than 45 minutes in between class 2 and 3. Plus class 2 and 3 might suck. But 1 and 4 look pretty awesome, so, eh, I'll manage.

Okay, yesterday I promised y'all something about my latest lust. So here goes.

I desperately want a Mini Cooper. I mean, its gotten to the truly fetish point...which is weird because I am sooooooo not a "car guy". And its ridiculously impractical. But I want one. A red one with the cool white stripes on the hood and maybe a British flag on top and cool seats and cool rims too. Every time I even see a mini on the road, I stop and stare and drool and imagine being able to drive it. And I've never done this over a car in my whole life. I mean, really, me, lusting over a car?? That's crazy talk.

One should not dream of walking out of a fetish club with fresh marks all over there body and thinking about the play date they have with some cutie bottom (We switches have to work both angles into any good fantasy......okay, I made that up), tossing their toybag in the truck and zooming off in a stick-shift Mini Cooper. That's not normal.

And for Christ's sake, I can't even drive stick!!

Help me. I don't want to end up rubbing one out over Mini pics.

Jake Bullet

New Awesome Links

Hey All,

We have new awesome links. Brett and Hiromi, Nedry Girl, NY Escorts and Tambos Photos! Hurray for new links.

After my class today (eep, I have history in 45 minutes!), I'll be working more on the room, playing around with this blog (read: more links and maybe a different format) and the LJ one and doing a post on my latest lust (Hint: Its metal....and other stuff too).

Time to grab my a Rockstar and my backpack.

Jake

New Room

Well, no I haven't moved, but looking at the old room versus the new one, you might think that I had.

To say that my old room was a bit of a bachelor pad is really giving me alot of credit. It was a disaster. A complete and total one. Enter the Fairy. Because its nice to be able to hang out at my place in addition to her place, I decided to toally clean, organize, debulk, deep clean and otherwise make my room habitable for human inhabitation. I spent the bulk of this past weekend, with a super ton of help from Fairy, cleaning and organizing the room. And you can see my pretty new hardwood floors now!! And I'm learning how to clean and keep things neat so that one day, I can be a better housepet! Woo hoo!

But yeah, cool new bed frame (it looks kind of like a kids bed because it has drawers underneath) a new 5 shelf bookshelf which I indeed to fill as fast as I can, every piece of furniture in a different place. Its all very good. Hopefully, I should have the last of the new items I need (small lamp, calander, etc.) plus the desk and couch moved by tomorrow. I'm very jazzed by this idea.

And I made it to the gym and all my hella awesome classes today. I'm firmly committed to going to the gym and to class this year. Firmly committed!

Now if only I could manage to learn to dance, I'd be hella awesome.

Jake Bullet

SNOW!!!

Its snowing!!! Really hard!! I love snow....I mean, I really really love it when theres snow all over the ground. And the ground has been bare and ungly green for awhile now. But its snowed so hard in the last few hours that the ground is all covered. The grass is covered, the leaves are covered, the roads are covered. I love snow. Okay, time to hit the gym, I missed going with the Fairy today because I'm an idiot. So now I have to go by myself.

Jake Bullet

2 weeks eh?

Well, its been 2 weeks since I posted. And thats a long time. And so, I am very sorry indeed to all the blog readers out there. Between family stuff, random life jazz, out of town travel, and falling out of the habit of blogging, its been not good. But rest assured dear readers, I'll be back to regular blog updates starting tonight. Again, mea culpa...but you're getting my thoughts for free so I don't feel too bad.

Well, whats been going on the past 2 weeks? Lots and lots!

#Went to see The Piercer with Fairy and got cut and poked (with needles and scalpels) and then watched him and the Fairy have a little fun. Good times.

#Had a nice holiday season and birthday with the family. Got to see different relatives and catch up with them and all that good jazz.

#Went to GD with Sally Jane which was just good clean fun all around. Alot of good time talking and getting to know each other better.

#Got to hang out with Dawson alot which was good. And got to meet one of his friends for awhile when he was in town.

#Went B.O.B. shopping with the Fairy which was a hoot, plus the store we went to let you try them out. Not on your bits, but you could hold them, turn them on, etc.

#Had a lovely Birthday celebration with the family which included going to my absolute favorite Indian resturant and eating curry and drinking Indian beer all night.

#Got "adopted" by one of my favorite fellow pervs (she says I'm like her little brother, which was just about the nicest thing I'd ever heard). I'm going to call her Sis just to be silly

#Got some sweet B-day/Xmaas gifts including my new favorite toy ever! 30GB iPod with video!!!!! I love this toy.

#Drank more than 23 drinks for my 23rd birthday (the fairy decided each glass was one drink.....fine for beer, less so for extra strength jack and cokes). I will never, ever drink like that again

#Took that second contract job. They are paying me about 40% of my former yearly salary for 200 hours of work, if I win. Less if I lose, but its all good.

#And Monday, school starts up, which should be pretty awesome.

And whats coming in the next few weeks? Even more good stuff!
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Going to Sinsations in Leather where I may be a demo bunny for the Piercer in one of his classes.

#Play date with Ninja at Sinsations......mmmm, blood, needles, scalpels.....um, I need to either stop thinking about that or go rub one out. :-)

#Generally hanging with the pervs the next few Thursdays and Saturdays

#Maybe going out of town to see Jonathan, I have a nutty idea which I need to run by him.

Well, time to go play with my new toy a little bit more.

Jake Bullet

Gym

I want a +1 fez of world domination. Why? Read this.

Well, yesterday was day one at the gym, and I've made several observations. Plus its not actually as bad as I thought it would be or that it could have been.

Number 1, being in a boys locker room at a nice gym is a little difficult because you had to constantly remember that any looking or staring, or offering to "help" in the shower is not appreciated. However, just taking the occasional glance makes the trip a little more fun.

Number 2, exercise isn't as bad as it could be. But thats not the worst bit. The pain/burn/hurtiness of exercising is similar enough to an S&M scene that I can concentrate on the endorphins and its not so bad. And I have a better idea of whats a good hurt versus and bad hurt, so I know that nothing I'm doing is anywhere near injury producing. I secretly hate this fact.

Number 3, having a workout buddy makes the job about 9000 times easier. Theres the motivation, the watching them suffer through the same exercises, being able to banter back and forth, and the fact that you have no good reason for shirking out then.

I think I'm going to head down to GD for my birthday this year. Well, not right on the date, but the weekend after. Jack Rinella is presenting a topic and then its playtime. Good times all around.

Well, time to find something that looks like a healthy breakfast before heading to the gym around noon.

Jake Bullet

If you see signs of the Apocalypse in the next few days, you can blame me. You see, the unthinkable has happened. I'm supposed to be the plump jolly guy. Okay fine, at times I can be a bitter mean ass, but still, work with me. I'm supposed to make fun of gym bunnies and what not. I'm supposed to Well, see then this one thing happened.

I was convinced to join a gym.

I just signed up for a gym membership at a very nice place, and I even have a workout buddy, but still, a plague of locusts may descend on us at anytime.

Hopefully, I'll be able to lose some inches and gain some better upper body strength. Hopefully, I'll make it through day one without a heart attack.

Time to go find workout clothes and other jazz.

Jake Bullet