Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Cutting....mmmmmmmm

So what a freaking weekend was that, definitely better than heading out with the parents to see family.

I spent much of the weekend setting up, attending, and tearing down the Holiday Fetish Fair in Chicago. Which I will share stories of very soon. The other part of the weekend was spending several hours in a public dungeon when I am a brand spanking new member. I did two fucking amazing scenes that night at the club. First, I helped TOP a scene!! I know! Me! Mr Ninja, 2 other Doms and I all "gang-topped" Mrs Ninja for there first wedding anniversary. But that story will wait till just a little later. And stories of the Fetish Fair itself will also wait, though I will say that it was nice to see old and new friends there.

Todays story is about the cutting scene that Mr Ninja and I did after we gang topped his wife. This is the second time Ninja and I have played together and both times have been cutting scenes, which I am starting to like more and more. The Piercer was the one who initially taught Ninja how to cut, and he learned his lessons very well.

The first scene we did together was alot of fun and a perfect opportunity to "test drive" the sensations of needles and scalpels on my flesh. And it was a great scene and it left very nice, artistic cuts on my back. But this time, I think we were both in the mood for something fast, hard, and aggressive.

We got set up on a spanking bench after throwing down a drop cover and negotiating some of the specifics. Basically, my part of negotiation involved saying "Just like before except harder, deeper, faster, scarier and blooder". After stripping down, Mr Ninja did some Rough body play on my back, punching and slapping my back and ass. That really warmed my back up and got all the nerves ready and awakened. Then I got tied down to the bench with wrist cuffs and ropes holding down my legs. Then we started. And it was amazing...mindblowing and painful as fuck.

He started hard on my shoulder blades with (I think) needles cutting long hard squiggly lines into me. I was flying so hard I'm not sure of what all happened, but I do know this. He really played up the fear aspect when he was cutting near my kidneys and told me in this evil domly voice that one little extra push and the scalpel would nail my kidneys. He totally rocked the blood aspect by periodically wiping the blood off my back and forcing me to look at it, telling me that it was mine and that alot more was to come. He started hard and fast and I could fee the cuts were deeper, which was great. And in classic me fashion, towards the end I swore I would get my revenge and started cursing at him. Which is always a great sign from me that I'm grooving on the sensation and that I'm really being pushed good and hard.

Oh, I almost forgot the very best part. Once he had mostly finished his work, Ninja signed his name on me. Let me repeat that, as it bears repeating. He signed my back using a scalpel! He put his initials and the date on my left back, near the kidney. Now, lets talk about how much that is a turn on for a guy with a thing for marks. Not only did he mark me from shoulder blades to my waist. Not only did he draw a fair amount of blood and cause me the most wonderful pain. He marked me, but more than that. He made his mark on me. ::drool:: No one else walked out of the club with that type of mark. I mean, talk about your possessive, "you're mine right now" actions. Its making me hot just touching the mark. I just love that mark, thats the specialist one of the bunch.

It was just a great scene and I got alot of complements on the marks and the scene that night and the next day at the fair. I think that cuttings and bloodplay are slowly becoming one of my favorite things for a couple of reasons. First, I just find the edgeplay aspect and the openly flowing blood idea hot. I mean, I know its weird, but its hot when a guy makes me bleed, especially since I asked for me. Second, its an opportunity to get really close to the top I'm playing with. You can use a bullwhip from 20 feet away and alot of impact play is done from a few feet away. But cutting and bloodplay, you have to be close, you have to be touching each other. And thats something I really like. But I just really like the type of pain that the needles and scalpels bring out. Its sharp and heavy and hard but stays for quite awhile. Its easily controlled, but I'm not the one controlling it. I really do just love cuttings and they marks.

You know, like piercing and electro play....I swore I would never do cuttings. Now its definately near the top of my list. I need to stop turning soft limits into fetishes, it ruins the phrase "I'd never do that".

Hopefully, I get a chance to play with Ninja again and maybe I'll get the opportunity to help top Mrs Ninja again one of these days.

Tomorrow, I'm off to the munch and I'll also try to post on how the Fair itself went and what it was like to help top Mrs Ninja.

Jake Bullet

Friday, November 25, 2005

Cooking

I actually ate remarkable little for Thanksgiving. Not that I've ever really viewed the day as a time for competitive eating and the lot, but things cropped up which prevented me from gorging too much.

Was it because the food is burned?

Or because there was a blazing row over dinner with the relatives?

Or am I on some new fangled diet?

Or because I was alone at my apartment, eating a turkey sub?

Well, no, it was none of those. I spent the day cooking, which normally, I leave to others on this day.

See, because of the Holiday Fetish Fair, plus some other engagements earlier in the weekend, I choose not to accompany my family to Detroit. See, since before my parents were married, before I was even a thought in there minds and before they had there current jobs, they have been making this annual jaunt to Detroit to see my fathers family. And I could actually predict, with startling accuracy, what the events of the trip will be. Where everyone will shop. Who was over for dinner. Which items were specially prepared for whom. What the general topics of conversation will be. Its a nice trip and one I have enjoyed a great many times, but I've sort of outgrown it.

So I decided to spend the day with my grandfather and cook for us. We spend very little time together and so it seemed like a nice idea. And we got ourselves a bird and I agreed to cook.

Since my parents have a much better kitchen for doing major cooking events (I think I just invented a term there), I made a motion to cook there. And everything went fairly well. We even cleaned up and my mother should come back and find her kitchen looking quite nice, and not at all like a disaster area.

The menu included:
-A small turkey, covered in various seasonings and cooked with dressing inside
-Cornbread dressing with fresh onion and pork sausage
-Garlic mashed potatoes from scratch. I modified my mothers recipe slightly, and I think I have an idea for how to make a few subtle improvements to my modifications
-Gravy from scratch and
-Corn.

We also had some pumpkin pie (store bought) and some veggies and dip to munch on during the preparation. And it should be noted that except for the potatoes and corn, I had never prepared any of the other dishes before. And the potatoes I have generally done with the supervision/assistance of my mother.

I started prepping the bird and doing the dressing at about 11am and we finally sat down around 5ish. So that's 6 hours of cooking. And there wasn't much time to sit down once the bird was in the oven, because I was constantly basting it and checking everything. Plus after the stuffing and bird were done I had to strike and reset the kitchen and I was constantly pulling out pots and pans to take care of the next round of preparation.

And it was fun. I honestly had quite a bit of fun. I love to cook when I have a proper kitchen and proper ingredients, which I had. I love to cook when I can run the kitchen how I like and when I have enough room to maneuver around. And I love to cook when I can turn it into performance art, which I was able to do because my grandfather got to see my cooking skills and there is so much leftover that the parents will be able to taste it.

But I was so freaking tired that after eating just enough to make sure everything came out well, I layed down to watch the last quarter of the game and relax and I promply fell asleep and didn't wake up for 2 hours. And then I was up just enough to finish with the second half of the dishes.

It was a nice thanksgiving all in all. And I think I'm going to try to plan more major cooking events in the future. But first, I need a 4 sided apron. After all, what's cuter than a boy who can cook in a kitchen in a little apron?

Jake Bullet

Monday, November 21, 2005

Forgot this bit

Best quote from the drive by Jonathan and I

After talking with his mom on the phone about checking the internal temp of the bird with a meat thermometer.
-Jake(in a very resigned voice): Jonathan, I just....Jonathan, take this for what its worth, but never accidentally switch the rectal probe with the meat thermometer....(long sigh)...its just better for everyone involved
-Jonathan (giggling): I can't believe you said that
-Jake(still very serious and dry): See, the meat thermometer is sharp and when you're inserting it into a human colon, well, that's just a little uncomfortable for all involved, what with the perforation of the bowels and the blood and the crying and screaming. Plus then you end up with partially cooked bird parts in your ass, and no one likes that....well, almost no one...but we don't talk about those sickos (saying the sickos part in a very hauty voice)
-Jonathan (crying with laughter): partially cooked bird parts in the ass?????
-Jake: yeah, its just not tasty like that, not at all (shudders)
-Jonathan: I can't believe I haven't had you killed yet. No more talkie for you anymore
-Jake: And you try wiping the lube off a rectal probe and then jamming it in the side of a turkey, its, well, its difficult Jonathan, I won't lie to you, I've tried these things before. And lube does not make a good seasoning, better to stick to....well, you know, not lube
-Jonathan: (smacks me and laughs more)

I'm a little evil sometimes.

Jake Bullet

Jonathan

Look to the right, lots of new fabo links. Enjoy in good health, more will be coming soon. I've got one or two more blogs I may add, plus several new BDSM and political links

So I picked Jonathan up from the airport today and we had many lovely conversations...about friends, which friends we thought might also be perverts (Jonathan is not a pervert, but he knows I am), our love lives, his trip, people who talk on the plane because they forgot to buy a magazine, the good old days and of course politics. Some of the winning lines of the night are as follows:

After he talked to his mom on the phone about cooking a turkey.
-Jake: Now Jonathan, you know that when you clean the bird, you can't actually use dish soap, it hurts the taste....just plain water is all that’s allowed
-Jonathan(Without missing a beat, totally sarcastic/serious): Really?? I just figured I could toss it in the dishwasher or something….


Later in the night when refilling the gas.
-Jonathan, What kind of fuel does this beast take?
-Jake (look of disbelief): Regular. Plain, ole regular. If there was anything less than regular, I'd use that. Shit, if I could get away with it, I'd fill the tank with kerosene and water, but the car people frown on that policy.
-Jonathan (choking with laughter): Kerosene and water it is....maybe I should add my gum wrapper for fiber!
-Jake: Screw your fiber!

We also talked about the confluence of small, seemingly random events that brought us to where we are in our lives. Attending the same school. Me attending a meeting. Him being convinced to go on a trip. A girl not doing her job, allowing him to take the job. Me volunteering. Him trusting me when he had no reason to. So many little things. God, what would life have been like if the line at the greasy spoon had been shorter and I had skipped his meeting??? I wouldn't be at this school. I wouldn't be a Poli Sci major. I likely would have dropped out of college altogether. He wouldn't have gotten the job that was his stepping-stone to his last 3 jobs. Half our friends would have never met one another. God, what if that line had been shorter??? Or if he had said “Screw You” when I volunteered??? I don't even know who I would be right now. Its weird to think about those what ifs. But I’m glad things turned out the way they did. Really really glad.

That’s why sometimes I thank the Gods and Goddesses above for long lines.

Jake Bullet

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Update number 8374

Well, here's where we are.

I recieved Chef! today which was nice and according to the Amazon people, I should be getting my books plus Newsradio and Office Space soon enough. Good times.

I will be going down to Chicago early to help set up the LeatherSins Holiday Fetish Fair and hopefully I will be staying at the House of Z while I am down there. That should be good fun. I may be obtaining a membership at GD2 while I am there, maybe not. But either way I get to see fun people and hopefully buy a few fun things. On the "To Purchase" list is the following: clover clamps, wartenberg wheel and leather paddles. I may pick up a few knives down there from Katana and I also will be ordering some heavy duty wrist and ankle cuffs from Katana. Plus I'll pick up anything that strikes my fancy.

Right now I am at Jonathan's house, he's asleep. I should be too. We are getting up in about 2.5 hours and driving to Chicago so that he can go see a cute girl. I fully support the out of state travel for sex and perversion. Thouhg with Jonathan, it will just be sex. I know he'll have fun. I should go to bed soon.

I now have the final item needed for the new box in my toybag. Heres whats in the box right now:

#Neosporin - for cleaning and soothing wounds
#Bandages - for covering wounds and cuts
#Gauze pads - same as above
#Tape - to hold the Bandages to the skin
#Forceps - For holding alcohol soaked cotton balls for fire play
#Needles - 100 brand new 23 gauge needles that just beg to be poked into my skin. Good times.
#Scalpels - 10 hospital grade scalpels for cutting scenes.
#Heavy duty shower curtain - A drop cloth for blood play scenes. I will be talking to the Piercer soon enough to find something better to use
#Lidocaine spray - helps with the itch associated with fresh cuts and scratches
#Alcohol - for fireplay plus its good to clean an area before cutting
#Gloves - I am a very firm believer in barrier protection for all kinds of play
#Sharps Container - Well, I was just going to leave used, uncapped needles on the dungeon floor, but then I realized that wasn't very nice

That box is now my box for fireplay and blood sports equipment. All packed away nice and neat. Now all I need is a delightfully evil Domly person to offer to cut me. *offers up my cutest look ever* Good times.

Alright well. Time to sign off. I've got a draft of a journal entry about BDSM and self body image. Its needs organization and tweaking, but it should turn out quite nicely. I'm sure you will all enjoy it.

Till then...

Jake Bullet

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Amazon Dot Com Whore

I know, Amazon.com has been around for years. I know, everyone’s already heard of it and everyone already uses it. But recently, I've started to become an Amazon.com whore, I go there and see about 10,000 things I want to buy. What’s in the next shipment that I'm waiting for?

Jay Wiseman's Erotic Bondage Handbook - At Kinky Kollege, I had the opportunity to meet Jay and also help him sell a few books. I picked up SM 101 there and highly enjoyed it. And now I need another book on rope bondage. Midori's book is great, but I've heard that Jay Wiseman's is perfect for practical instructions on 1 and 2 column ties and many other practical knots. I may have the need to use those soon so I figured this was as good as an excuse to buy the book as I was ever going to find.

The Last Human - In Britain , two men named Rob Grant and Doug Naylor created the Red Dwarf series. A series which I am happily obsessed with. They wrote the series under the pen name Grant Naylor, but unfortunately, they split up. They no longer write together and they were 2/3rds of the way through a trilogy of books when this happened. So each one separately finished it. This is Doug Naylors conclusion to the series and I really want to see how he envisioned things ending.

Screw the Roses, Send Me the Thorns: The Romance and Sexual Sorcery of Sadomasochism - Okay, admittedly I got this book because the website said if I ordered more then they'd give me a discount. But in reality, this book as been on my "to read" list for quite some time. I always enjoy reading SM related books because invariably I learn things about myself from them. And its always fun to come up with new and fascinating ideas.

Office Space Special Edition with Flair - Okay another purchase I suckered into with the "Buy more and we'll give you money back" offer. But more so than that, I just find this movie hilarious, simply freaking hilarious. Plus the guy who plays Milton (Stephan Root) is one of my favorite actors.

Chef! The Complete Series - Odds are you have never heard of this show. Ever. Its okay, I don't look down on you because of it. It’s an obscure British comedy that I found one night on PBS. And it’s hilarious. I mean I love British comedy to begin with, but I really identify with this particular show. The premise is that this very hot black chef (Lenny Henry) (picture) is the head chef at England’s Finest French Restaurant. And his wife is the Manager and there is a young man named Everton who is perhaps the least competent kitchen worker in the history of all England. Chef is an extraordinary demanding man who is almost constantly ready to kill anyone who makes the slightest mistake in the kitchen. I know, it sounds a little odd. But if you've worked in a gourmet restaurant before, its so close to the truth that its scary. Trust me, this show is hilarious. Its mostly an interplay between Chef, his wife and Everton. Various other characters exist, but really, they're not important.

Lastly...
Newsradio Season 1 and 2 - I'm comfortable sharing the fact that I'm obsessed with this show. Mostly for the interplay between Dave Foley and Stephan Root. Many years ago, this show was on some channel between noon and 1pm. And I watched it everyday. It kept me going and gave me something small to look forward to each day. Everyday I spent an hour with Dave Foley, Stephan Root, Andy Dick, Phil Hartman, Joe Rogan, Vicki Lewis, and Maura Tierney. This silly little comedy gave me a little laughter at a time in my life when I needed some laughter. And now its out on DVD and by golly, I needed to have it. This show never fails to make me smile and remember a few important lessons and an important phone call. I like things that remind you of moments long gone. And, in the end, this show is hilarious.

Well, alright, that’s all for this shipment.

Till later all.

Jake Bullet

Monday, November 14, 2005

Sorry

I haven't updated in a long time. And I'm sorry for that, but it’s been an odd past few days. Anywho.

Jill and I may be playing sometime in the future, maybe. And I'm not going to be the bottom in that scene.

Work, in fact, sucks.

I bought Newsradio from Amazon.com. I also bought several other books and another movie but Newsradio is the important part. That show saved my life several years ago, literally. I'll tell that story one day.

The Perv Halloween party was loads of fun.

The Fairy and I got some new scalpels and needles over the weekend. I now have a box in my toybag devoted to needle play and cutting.

I had the cops crawling all over the building (security job) last night because there was a guy hiding in the building. We never found him. It was odd helping the cops search because they had guns drawn and I had a large flashlight.

I've sort of been in my head the last few days. It’s not fun.

My parents treat me like a 12 year old when in their house. Now under the right circumstances with someone other than my parents that could be fun and relaxing, but its just annoying when its them.

I have an idea for a series of interesting blog posts for the near future, more on that another day.

Alright well, hopefully we will soon return to regularly scheduled blog updates.

Jake Bullet

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Work

Today my boss cried. Thats how bad work is. Paul, this expierenced player, sharp as a whip mind, totally not emotional guy, just cried today. Thats how bad work is. And guess who gets to be one of 4 people fixing it all? Thats right, me. How delightful. Work sucks.

I haven't had any time to blog till now, so stories will still have to wait as I am using the blog post partially as a way to take a break from work for a little while. And to be honest, I'm just not feeling in the mood to share tales of being cut over the weekend, it was a great weekend, but I'm just not up to it right now.

Also, updates to the blog....like new links and new other stuff, are also on hold for the time being.

Alright, well, I've procrastinated long enough, back to the grindstone. Fortunately I do get to go to the local pervert Halloween party tomorrow and I convinced Sally Jane to wear these really hot boots by offering to fetch drinks for her all night, that outta be fun.

Till then.

Jake Bullet

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

weekend

This is gonna be random, but have fun with it.

The ORIGINAL plan was to attend a party starting at 8pm in Chicago and leave the same night or at like 2am (technically) the next morning. 6 hour party plus drive time right. The ORIGINAL plan was just to eat a little, drink a little, shake a few hands, try not to do anything stupid and not scene. Easy enough. The ORIGINAL plan was a simple trip down south for a brief thank you party.

What actually happened was I was down in Chi Town from 3pm Friday till late afternoon of Sunday. What actually happened was I have several great new friends and great new stories. What actually happened was I had two great scenes and I have the prettiest marks to show off. What actually happened is I now have a standing invitation to come to Chi Town whenever I want.

So, here are some topics for the next few days.
-General recalling of the weekend
-A good HEAVY flogging scene
-My first cutting scene (he used a scalpel on me....)
-My new friends from Chi Town

Also, there are going to be some updates to the blog itself. New links, a syndication type thing into a livejournal blog, possibly a new look, updates to the cast of characters and my bio.

Unfortunately, Work and Life are going to be kicking my ass for the next few days. But hey, that's what you get sometimes. Till I have a little more time, I'll just leave you all with this little tease.

Jake Bullet